2011 - The Year That Was

Looking back on everything that has happened to me this year, I must say that there are a lot of things that I shoud be thankful about. Yes, of course, there are things that brought me to tears. That's normal, I guess.

First and foremost, God. I admit, I don't go to church. I can't even remember the last time I went to one but I pray. I think He let me experience all those sufferings to remind me that He's just there and that I need to pay him a visit once in a while.

The man who loves me unconditionally. My ultimate spoiler. My Dad. I'll keep in mind all the things that you have told me when it comes to choosing a mate. "You have to check his assests and liabilities first. If he doesn't meet the expectations, leave him." I know it's just a joke but yeah, reality check, you have to. It's for your family's future. But what I'll always remember is when you said "Get yourself a good man na kayang ibigay o higitan pa lahat ng kaya kong ibigay sa'yo not just material things. You know what I mean." Indeed. Amen to that, Pa.

The woman who nags most of the time but for a good reason. My mom. I understand why you talk too much and maybe I got that attitude of mine from yours. Haha! Kidding aside, I idolize you in everything. Don't worry, I'm just enjoying my life at the moment. I'm still your baby, Ma! Period.

The two kids who ask me when I'll go back to Manila whenever I go home to Bataan as if they don't wanna be with me but always ask for pasalubong, Jason and Justine. We have a lot of differences because of our age gap and I'm always the one to adjust since I'm the eldest. Ang daya lang because you always have mom and dad beside you. But still, I don't wanna go back to Bataan for good. That's crazy! Hahaha!

My relatives especially my cousins. We seldom see each other but I know you're always updated through FB. Mga palihim na chismoso! Haha.

I couldn't believe that I'll be able to meet more than 300 people rolled into 26 batches in just 10 months of working as a trainer. It feels so surreal for me to teach people who are twice or thrice my age! I've had sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, moms, dads, and even kids! Yeah, I taught you guys the whatnots in the BPO industry but you taught me so much more than that. I know I have shortcomings and I thank you all for understanding. I appreciate and value the friendship that we've built.

My ever supportive buddy, Ate Jazz. I would love to put your whole name here but I know you're gonna kill me if I do! Hahaha! You're not just a friend to me but also a mom. I know you're sick and tired of listening to all of my whatevers and I appreciate that very much. You know everything. Thanks for always being there for me, for guiding me, and for giving me advices. I just wish that we can hang out in Robinsons Galleria some time! Ang hirap mong ayain 'pag malayo sa'yo! Nakakainis! LOL.

Mah boys! My ever dearest boy friends! The guys na isang text ko lang, andiyan agad. Jheric, J.E., Sonny, Anthony, and Louie. Wala na kasi si Romeo, eh. It feels great because I have brothers na napagsusumbungan ko whenever I'm down and scold me when I did something wrong.

Those random people that I met and random events that I experienced. Some are unforgettable and some are to be seen in the trash bin.

And the biggest thing that happened to me this year, AJ. I've experienced all the bests and the worsts this year because of you. Seriously, after what happened to us, I don’t think I’m in the right state of mind to get myself involved in another story. You're the best thing I never had yet the worst thing that ever happened to me. Pangatawanan mo 'yang desisyon mo. Ngayong wala ka na, siguraduhin mo lang na hindi ka na babalik or else, I'll do whatever it takes to have you back. Mark my word.

EVERY END IS JUST THE START OF SOMETHING BETTER. I've loved, suffered, realized, accepted, and learned a lot but I must say that I'm so thankful to everything and everyone who made their grand entrance and wonderful exit in my life this year. At dahil New Year na, kailangan ko na ng new (love, ehem) life!

Let's welcome the new year with a blast! Have an explosive 2012! =)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

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My Wins This 09/09/09

It's a given fact that it's my 20th (Yes, 20th) birthday today but aside from that, there are a lot of things that I'm really thankful for this day. This is in chronological order so you'll have an idea of what happened to me today.


1. Got a midnight phone call from Gerald and Lloyd. First greetings for the day.
2. Still up at 1:00 am and received love from my UZZAP friends.
3. Woke up at 5:30 am and read birthday messages in my cellphone's inbox.
4. Mom hugged me when she woke up that she hasn't done for a long time.
5. Kuya Jay for picking me up a bit late than the usual. Got time to watch Unang Hirit.
6. Jennylyn and her pupils surprised me with a loud "Happy birthday, Ma'am Jenn!!!" when they saw me walking.
7. Ate Febie's greetings from above. I mean it literally.
8. Joana's while sweeping the floor and the parents who heard it also greeted me.
9. Ma'am Emily (principal) for letting us transfer from our classroom to the library. (Flood!!!)
10. One of my pupils gave me a pack of peanut butter flavored chips when he found out that it's my day.
11. My co-interns in OSES for cheering me up while doing the kids' costumes. Calming me down because they know that I don't like the ambiance THERE.
12. James, Jerico and Raymond's dorky acts.
13. Sir Hernandez sang the birthday song for me... just the last line. LOL.
14. My classmates' greetings in the "elementary manner."
15. Mrs. Alipio for the book. I just realized that it's my turn to report the next day!
16. Elena, Hercel, Roselle, Jenny, Cath and Jean for a nice game, snacks and drinks at Yana's. (With the special participation of James and Jerico. LOL)
17. Dad for calling and greeting me. He already left when I woke up so he just called me. He told me that I'm his favorite.
18. Mom and Jason for waiting for me so that we'll have dinner together. They don't usually wait for me when I go home a bit late so I end up eating dinner alone.
19. Mom granted my request for a tuna pie, spaghetti and chocolate cake. (Yeah, I'm shallow)
20. Rhon's sudden visit. Really unexpected. I was just supposed to check if the gates are closed when I saw him standing outside while the rain is pouring. He lighted up the "20" candle on top of the cake and forced me to blow it up. I don't really like doing those stuffs. Silly!
21. Finally, we talked about the rumors spreading about us. I thought he doesn't care about me and that he'll let me face it alone but what I'm thinking was the exact opposite. He told 'them' the real story but as expected, 'they' didn't believe it. At least, we already cleared our side.
22. Opened his gift wrapped in a personalized gift wrapper (really made me smile with the message on it) and it was a face towel that smells like him and a chocolate.
23. Tita Di's phone call all the way from Bacolod. (Just telling each other that we are both pretty! Hahaha)
24. Read all the online greetings that I got from my relatives, PSI friends, clanmates and other friends.


It's already 09/10/09 by this time. I just wanna say thank you to everyone who greeted me and made me smile. Now that I'm not a teen anymore, I'll try to act according to my age. Just try. LOL.


Thank you!!!

Tama!

Just wanna say this.



May tama ako!



And I dunno if I should like this feeling.

For Him

Just wanna share something.

A couple of months ago, he asked me to write a poem. I had a hard time thinking about what I'm going to write until something crossed my mind which is of course, related to what I feel. Here it goes:

Refrain

I wanna come to you

I wanna know if you feel my love for you

It makes my breathing still

Can’t feel even a single thing

I just look alright

But no one knows that I’m fainting inside

Even if I scream your name

The distance won't allow you to hear me calling

Flooded with regrets of not letting you know

How much I’m dying to be with you

I wanna refrain from thinking about it

But it just leaves me crying

I’m tired of saying the words “I love you”

There’s no use to say that alone

My sorrow over you keeps on getting worse

And I can’t stand it any longer

I feel like a fool

Coz sighing is all that I can do

If you'll consider me even just for a second

I’ll prove that you have nothing to loose

My heart dies coz of loneliness

How I wish you can fill this emptiness

Silently longing and caring for you

Hope that in the end, you will be the direction that I will go to

He actually told me that he'll make a song out of it but I doubt it. Sigh.